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Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop: Toddler Troubles

“Lillian? You don’t think I’m crazy, do you?” Elle spoke her question softly, almost as if she didn’t want Lillian to actually hear it. Lillian looked up from the tea she was preparing and looked at Elle with narrowed eyes. The words hung in the air like a fog.

“No”, Lillian said finally. “I don’t think you’re crazy. I’ve seen many strange and amazing things in my life, especially involving you. You aren’t crazy, you’re special. And somehow we’ll figure out how to manage these gifts of yours.”

Elle snorted dismissively. “Well, I feel crazy. Normal people don’t have visions of themselves as babies. Normal people don’t leap into other people’s bodies and experience that person’s life. Normal people see what is right before them, no more no less.”

Lillian jumped at the mention of Elle as a baby. When Elle had initially spoken to her about her visions and experiences she had only seen events that were relatively present-day. This was her first jump into her past.

“You saw yourself as a baby? When did this happen?” Lillian sat at the table and pushed a mug of mint tea over to Elle. She watched Elle over her the rim of her mug. Elle looked down at the tea for a moment, as if contemplating how much discussion she wanted to have. Generally she was completely open with Lillian but something about this particular episode affected her. Eventually she reached down and pulled a small bundle out of the bag at her feet. Lillian instantly recognized the pale yellow sleeper she had purchased all those years ago. It was the only baby related purchase she had ever made in her life so it had stuck with her.

“I went to that storage facility the lawyer told me about. The one that Dad had and never mentioned? It’s a disaster, by the way. As I was leaving, I knocked a bag down and it spilled open. Inside was this”, Elle spread the garment on the table. “When I picked it up I was sucked into a vision. I was in a room with a bed and some hospital equipment. You were there, and my parents, and a doctor. I realized I was seeing myself moments after I was born.

The oddest part was that you looked quite solid. My parents and the doctor were faint, almost like they were ghosts. And the baby…me…blurred before becoming very solid looking. I heard my Mom name me and saw you give the doctor the sleeper and then I was pulled back out. When I woke up I was in the storage locker again.”

Lillian considered this before answering. She had been working with Elle for months now, trying to figure out what her visions symbolized or what message was being sent. This was the first time she had definitively recognized people.

“I think”, she began slowly, “that the reason I appeared solid and your parents were faint is that I’m still alive while they have both passed away. And I would assume the doctor who helped deliver you has passed away as well. Why the baby version of you flickered…perhaps it has something to do with you being there at all. We’ll only know for sure if you have another vision from your past.”

She stood and walked over to a large trunk in the corner of the room. She pulled out an old ornate key from a drawer and used it to open the lock on the trunk. Elle watched with interest. Lillian had spent much of her adult life travelling and studying modes of life that were outside the norm. She had worked with people who had psychic abilities, telekinetic powers, practiced meditation, studied reincarnation, mediums, and witches. As a result she had a vast amount of knowledge that could potentially answer the questions Elle was faced with.

Finally, Lillian turned and held a small item in her hand. It was a teddy bear, worn and tired looking. And also, Elle noted, sticky looking. Lillian sat and placed the bear on the table between them.

“I’d like to try something”, she said. “I want you to pick up this bear and see what happens.”

Elle took a deep breath and reached for the bear. A split second before touching it she felt a jolt and was instantly transported into a vision.

She was standing in a hall. In one direction she could hear voices speaking. In another, the giggles of a child echoed. She turned toward the laughter, hoping it was herself. As she entered the room she could hear footsteps coming down the hall. Elle turned just as her father walked right through her. He was faded, like in the other vision.

“Hello, sweet girl! How was your na…Oh my lord! Becca! Becca come quickly!” Jason said. Elle stepped back out of her mother’s way as she burst into the room.

“Jason? What’s wrong? Has something happened to Elle?” Becca stopped, her face in a panic. Jason stepped aside and Elle took a good look at her toddler self. Becca stared  at her child and then burst into laughter.

Toddler Elle was covered from head to foot with a mixture of baby powder and diaper cream. Her hair stuck up in all directions and a thick white layer coated her face. Splotches of cream dotted the fabric of her sleeper and the dust from the spilled powder still lingered in the air. The empty containers were in her crib. She jumped up and down in her crib, crowing with laughter, one hand gripping the rail for support, the other waving a teddy bear that had received a similar treatment of diaper cream and powder.

In between giggles, Becca stuttered, “How are we going to get her clean? That stuff is water-proof!”

Elle watched her parents dash around the room, grabbing baby wipes, extra clothes, and special soaps before plucking Toddler Elle out of the crib and into a bath. She smiled at the memories this must have brought to her parents when she was older and not as likely to get into mischief.

Listening to the splashes and laughter from the next room Elle started to walk out of her childhood room and stepped on something soft. The teddy bear, forgotten in the excitement, was lying on the floor, its small face staring up at her with a perpetual grin. She leaned down to pick it up and felt that same jolt as she was transported back to the present.
Mama's Losin' It

This post is part of Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop. I chose the prompt What did they get into now? Describe a time your toddler got into something they shouldn’t have.

This is based on a true story. My oldest, 18months at the time, managed to get a hold of some diaper cream. We were so concerned with getting it off her and her clothes we never took a picture!! I so regret that. This is also a continuation of my post last week for Red Writing Hood. For more on Elle you can click over to here


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The Memory (Director’s Cut)

As promised, the extended version of the piece I wrote for yesterday’s Red Writing Hood

 

The storage locker was, to put it mildly, a disaster. Elle stood and surveyed the massive accumulation of stuff her parents had refused to part with over the years. She hadn’t known about this locker until the lawyer dealing with her father’s last will and testament mentioned it in a brief letter.

Elle sighed. There was so much she didn’t know, so many questions she wished she’d asked. And now? Now it was too late. She still had Lillian (and for that she was forever grateful) but it wasn’t the same as being able to talk to your parents directly. She needed that first person point of view that only her father could have given especially since her mother had died when she was so young. If she had known back then what would happen to her, if she had known that she would be tormented by voices, blackouts, and visions perhaps she would have questioned her parents a little closer about her birth story when she had a chance.

Well, maybe I’ll find some answers in this mess Elle thought as she stepped into the narrow room, made more so by the tenuously stacked boxes lining the walls. Layers of dust covered everything. She wondered when the last time the door was even opened. Taking a deep breath she plunged into the piles and began opening and sorting the items as best she could.

Two hours later very little had been accomplished, unless you consider having more questions about her past an accomplishment. Elle sat on the floor surrounded by piles of knick knacks, old clothing, and numerous USB drives. Those would have to be taken home since she had forgotten to bring her tablet with her. She had also discovered a box filled with paper documents, a definite oddity. Paper was rare since all trees were a protected species and everything was digitized.

Elle dug into the box and pulled out certificates, old letters, receipts, and various miscellaneous documents. She was beginning to think this was futile when a small square card slithered out between some other papers. She picked it up and noted her name written in very neat script along the top as well as her parents’ names. Along the bottom was written “Certificate of Live Birth”.

She felt tears welling up. This was the first time she had ever seen her birth certificate. It looked nothing like any birth certificate she had ever seen. All of her friends had had the usual data chip embedded onto a glass tablet screen. She gently placed it into a small notebook she found in the box and added it to her bag of items she was taking with her.

Elle scanned the room one last time, trying to decide if she should just give up for now. There was just too much to sort through alone. As she turned to leave her foot caught the edge of a box and a bag balanced precariously on top of a small tower slipped off its perch and landed on her head.

Damn! That hurt! Elle fumed and directed a vicious kick to the bag. The impact of her kick resulted in the closure popping open and bundles of clothing scattering all over the floor. She stooped and began gathering it all up and stuffing it into the bag when her hand grasped a thick piece of yellow material. She held it up and realized it was a baby garment. Before she could wonder if it had been hers she felt herself pulled violently into yet another vision.

Elle’s visions were confusing. She never knew when they would happen. Sometimes it was by touching an item, sometimes it was from a phrase spoken by an acquaintance, and sometimes it was completely random with no discernible cause. She rarely understood what she was seeing either. The experiences left her exhausted and disoriented when she “woke up”.

In her visions Elle was usually a by-stander observing the scene before her. This time was no different. She was in a room that was empty except for a bed and a few medical pieces of equipment. She gazed around the room dispassionately, waiting for something to clue her in to what was going on. Suddenly a voice interrupted her observations.

“What is her name?” the voice asked. Lillian! Elle thought happily. She turned towards the voice and saw Lillian standing by a window, staring out at the snow covered hills. Elle took a step towards her but was halted by the answer to Lillian’s question.

“Elle. Her name is Elle.”

Elle felt her knees go weak. Mama! She cried out silently. She moved towards her mother, now clearly visible within the bed, clutching a small bundle in her arms. Elle strained to see herself as a baby but the image flickered and she saw the baby fade away slightly, then grow stronger. Recognizing that the vision wasn’t going to let her interact more than as an observer she stayed back and watched. She trembled with the desire to throw herself into her mother’s arms, to be comforted and loved the way her infant self was.

A doctor moved closer to her mother’s side and reached for the baby. Elle noted he appeared faded and indistinct. She wondered if it had anything to do with this being a vision from the past. Her mother and father were indistinct as well however Lillian appeared much clearer and substantial.

“We need to get her cleaned up and dressed in something more than just a blanket,” the doctor said. “There’s little heat in this building and it’s very cold outside.”

“I have something for her to wear,” Lillian said as she pulled a thick baby sleeper out of a backpack. Elle gasped. It was the sleeper she had found in the storage unit. She watched as her father tenderly helped the doctor clean the baby, her she corrected herself, and dress her in the sleeper.

“We’ll need to move soon,” Lillian said as Baby Elle was handed back to her mother. “We have a day, maybe less, to get to a new location.”

As the discussion continued Elle felt herself pulled out of the vision. No! Noooooooo! She cried.

She woke sprawled out on the cold concrete floor of the storage locker, the tiny yellow sleeper clutched in her hands.


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Red Writing Hood: A Memory

Elle scanned the room one last time, trying to decide if she should just give up for now. There was just too much to sort through alone. As she turned to leave her foot caught the edge of a box and a bag balanced precariously on top of a small tower slipped off its perch and landed on her head.

Damn! That hurt! Elle fumed and directed a vicious kick to the bag. The impact of her kick resulted in the closure popping open and bundles of clothing scattering all over the floor. She stooped and began gathering it all up and stuffing it into the bag when her hand grasped a thick piece of yellow material. She held it up and realized it was a baby garment. Before she could wonder if it had been hers she felt herself pulled violently into yet another vision.

Elle’s visions were confusing. She never knew when they would happen. Sometimes it was by touching an item, sometimes it was from a phrase spoken by an acquaintance, and sometimes it was completely random with no discernible cause. She rarely understood what she was seeing either. The experiences left her exhausted and disoriented when she “woke up”.

In her visions Elle was usually a by-stander observing the scene before her. This time was no different. She was in a room that was empty except for a bed and a few medical pieces of equipment. She gazed around the room dispassionately, waiting for something to clue her in to what was going on. Suddenly a voice interrupted her observations.

“What is her name?” the voice asked. Lillian! Elle thought happily. She turned towards the voice and saw Lillian standing by a window, staring out at the snow covered hills. Elle took a step towards her but was halted by the answer to Lillian’s question.

“Elle. Her name is Elle.”

Elle felt her knees go weak. Mama! She cried out silently. She moved towards her mother, now clearly visible within the bed, clutching a small bundle in her arms. Elle strained to see herself as a baby but the image flickered and she saw the baby fade away slightly, then grow stronger. Recognizing that the vision wasn’t going to let her interact more than as an observer she stayed back and watched. She trembled with the desire to throw herself into her mother’s arms, to be comforted and loved the way her infant self was.

A doctor moved closer to her mother’s side and reached for the baby. Elle noted he appeared faded and indistinct. She wondered if it had anything to do with this being a vision from the past. Her mother and father were indistinct as well however Lillian appeared much clearer and substantial.

“We need to get her cleaned up and dressed in something more than just a blanket,” the doctor said. “There’s little heat in this building and it’s very cold outside.”

“I have something for her to wear,” Lillian said as she pulled a thick baby sleeper out of a backpack. Elle gasped. It was the sleeper she had found in the storage unit. She watched as her father tenderly helped the doctor clean the baby, her she corrected herself, and dress her in the sleeper.

“We’ll need to move soon,” Lillian said as Baby Elle was handed back to her mother. “We have a day, maybe less, to get to a new location.”

As the discussion continued Elle felt herself pulled out of the vision. No! Noooooooo! She cried.

She woke sprawled out on the cold concrete floor of the storage locker, the tiny yellow sleeper clutched in her hands.

This post is part of the Red Writing Hood. This week the prompt was: Write a piece – 600 word limit – about finding a forgotten item of clothing in the back of a drawer or closet. Let us know how the item was found, what it is, and why it’s so meaningful to you or your character.

I ended up going WAY over the limit initially so I jumped in about halfway to what I’d written. I’ll probably end up publishing the entire piece tomorrow because what was cut out answers some questions about Elle’s history…at least I think so ;)


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The Audit

Okay, I mentioned in my post last week for Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop that I was giving just a small piece of the whole section. If you are interested, the following e is what precedes that post.

 

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DECLINED. Another watermark for yet another application. Lillian grimaced at the screen. Elder Smith was getting all the fun ones this week. She glanced at the schedule next to her and her eyes widened at the next entry:

12:35pm – Audit

Audit? What audit? And why were they being audited? She looked up at Elder Smith and tried to gage his mood. He was one of the best people she had worked with in her short career but he could also be the most unpleasant person to deal with if his back was up. She had no idea if audits were frequent or usual so she worried what his attitude towards one would be. He looked like he was in a good mood so she decided to broach the subject.

“Elder? I noticed on the schedule we’re being audited? I wasn’t aware the Licensing Bureau was subject to auditing. “

“Oh, it’s fairly routine. They don’t happen very often but when they do you just provide the files they ask for and answer a few straightforward questions. I’ve personally never been audited but a few of my colleagues have been”, He shuffled through some papers on his desk and pulled out a thin file. “I’m glad you mentioned it. I need you to pull some files for the auditors. Could you run down to Central Storage and find the ones indicated?”

She looked at the list he provided. There weren’t many on it, perhaps only 20. She felt some relief. Central Storage was a dark, claustrophobic building that reminded her of a medieval torture chamber. She often questioned the sanity of people who chose to work in that department.

Central Storage was located on the other side of the complex and given the hour she would have to hurry to get there and back in time. Lillian was a little peeved Elder Smith didn’t tell her about this earlier but then considered he might have just been informed of it as well. Regardless, she would have to practically run, a difficult feat in her heels.

Lillian arrived at the square stone building slightly out of breath. She made her way into the rabbit warren of hallways and interconnected rooms until she reached the log out station. Entering the file numbers into the system provided a printout of the locations of each file. As well, beacons lit up at the end of the rows where a file was kept to make it easier to find.

A shame they don’t have robots working down here to find the files for you. Lillian thought as she walked slowly down a long narrow row. Her heels echoed on the stone floors and she shivered as the cool, moist air sank into her bones. The location system worked as it should (or perhaps people were actually filing properly for once) and she found what she needed.

Before heading back she decided to take a look at the files the audit had flagged. The first one was from her first month working for the department. The next few were also from her earlier months. By the end of the pile she noted a disturbing pattern: each file was one she had been involved in and were applications that appeared on the surface as slam dunk candidates for the license but had ended up being declined.

Lillian leaned back mulling this over. Why just her files? Elder Smith had 5 or 6 assistants that helped him on his files yet every single one of these was hers. She looked closer at the names of the applicants to try and jog her memory about their specific cases. No connection came to mind until she reached the last file: the Adamson’s. And suddenly she knew what the connection was. In every single case she had spoken to the applicants briefly after the meeting. Most were a simple “I’m sorry” but a few involved longer conversations about the bureaucracy.

A sense of foreboding began to build and she felt nauseous. If the Bureau thought she had done something wrong in these cases…she’d heard rumors of staff disappearing suddenly that were usually dismissed as people who couldn’t deal with the stress involved so they had quit. Now she wondered if there was more to it.

Lillian realized she had to get back to Elder Smith’s office. She gathered up the files and left the building, briskly walking across the complex grounds. She dwelled on the possible outcome of this audit and didn’t notice anyone trying to get her attention until a hand grasped her on the shoulder. Startled, she dropped the files to the ground. As she kneeled to gather them up a figure stooped down beside her to help. In shock, she saw Mr. Adamson next to her and his wife hovering behind.

“I’m so sorry I startled you”, he said as he grabbed up the files. “I called out but you didn’t hear me.”

“It’s alright. I’m a little distracted,” Lillian swallowed a lump in her throat when he passed her the files, his own on top.

“Do you have time to talk?” Mrs. Adamson asked. She looked at Lillian, her eyes pleading with her to say yes. Lillian wondered what she could possibly do for them. The fear deep within began to grow. It seemed like an impossible coincidence that she would be involved in an audit involving those specific files, one of which belonging to the people standing before her.

“I…I don’t really. Not right this second. I need to get these file back to Elder Smith as soon as possible.” Lillian took a deep breath, knowing she had to say it but fearing the consequences. “Would you like to wait for me? I’m not sure how long I will be. It could be hours until I have a moment.”

They looked at each other and Lillian could see a silent communication going between them. Finally Mrs. Adamson turned to her and said,

“We’ll wait.”

Lillian nodded and pointed to a shaded bench near the center of the complex green space. She watched as Mr. and Mrs. Adamson walked over to the bench and sat down then continued into the building to Elder Smith’s offices.

She began to run as soon as she entered into the building and burst into his office before taking note of additional occupants. The presence of unfamiliar Bureau employees brought her to a sudden stop.

A tall, slender woman dressed all in black stood next to Elder Smith’s desk. Her hand rested gently on his arm and she was leaning slightly down. If she hadn’t known Elder Smith better she would have thought this was a romantic dalliance suddenly interrupted. However, the steely look in the woman’s eye and the two imposing figures positioned on either side of the desk quickly stifled that possibility.

Lillian glanced uneasily at the men on guard. She had never seen anyone dressed like these people. Like the woman the men were all in black. The main difference was an emerald green armband encircling their left biceps. On closer scrutiny Lillian noted an emerald green crest embroidered on the left side of the woman’s jacket as well.

“I’m sorry it took me so long, Elder. Here are the files you asked for.”

Lillian placed the pile on the desk and stepped back slowly, bowing her head deferentially. She stealthily looked up through her lashes to gage Elder Smith’s reaction to her behavior. His face briefly showed surprise but then she could see he understood why she was behaving as she was.

“Thank you, Laura. That will be all for today”, he said, a strange emphasis on the name. He paused and then spoke more confidently. “Enjoy your vacation and I will see you in two weeks.”

Lillian gaped at him for a moment, her mouth falling slightly open, before closing it with a click. She understood.  She looked him square in the eye and replied,

“Thank you, sir. I’ll see you when I return.”

As she turned to leave the room Lillian looked at the woman and the guards, trying to judge whether or not they understood what had just transpired. The guards stared impassively forward, no expression at all betrayed on their faces. The woman looked at Lillian for what felt like an eternity before turning her attention back to Elder Smith.

“Now that we have the files necessary, Elder Smith, perhaps we can begin?”

Lillian closed the door behind her with a loud click and felt her knees begin to quiver. She forced them still and strode down the hall as fast as she could without looking like she was trying to escape.


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Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop: Rules

I jumped into the story a bit here, there is a good chunk that comes before this but I didn’t think you wanted to read a 2400 word post :) The rest of it will be posted shortly and linked up to the rest of Elle’s Story

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Her heart was still pounding as she exited the building, perhaps for the final time. Lillian had no idea what was going on but she knew it wouldn’t end well for her. Her instincts were screaming at her to run as far and as fast away from here as she could but she kept them in check. The complex was swarming with other employees and the last thing she needed was someone to take note of her.

As she walked down the path she caught sight of Mr. and Mrs. Adamson sitting on the bench. She changed directions and walked towards them. As she passed she said quietly,

“In five minutes get up and follow me. I’ll be by the reflection pool.”

Lillian forced herself to keep her gaze on the path before her. She had no idea if the Adamson’s would do as she asked or if they even heard her.

The reflection pool was devoid of any other visitor, a fact which made Lillian want to weep with relief. She sat on a bench at one end and watched for the Adamson’s. Within five minutes they appeared. Lillian ignored them until they settled on another bench adjacent to her. Mrs. Adamson’s face was white and Mr. Adamson kept glancing around him. Lillian realized that whatever the reason they had for wanting to speak with her, it was not good.

She stood and sat down next to Mr. Adamson, a sense of déjà vu overwhelming her. Meeting Mrs. Adamson’s eye she reached over and laid her hand on her knee. She gasped as a feeling of warmth flowed out of her hand and seemed to disappear into Mrs. Adamson.

“Something has happened to you, hasn’t it?” Lillian asked quietly. Mr. Adamson opened his mouth to speak but his wife beat him to it.

“I’m pregnant.”

Lillian felt as if her heart might stop. It began beating wildly and she tried to take a deep breath. Memories of her bouts with childhood asthma flooded her.

It’s alright child. Just breathe. You’ll be fine. Nana is here.

The voice of Lillian’s grandmother filled her mind and instantly her body began to calm in response. She closed her eyes for a moment. Mr. Adamson laid her hand on her arm.

“Are you alright?”

Opening her eyes Lillian considered her words before answering.

“No. But I will be.” She stared off into the pool. “It can’t be a coincidence that you’ve shown up today. All the signs are there. I just wish I knew for what!”

“Lillian? Do you know how this happened? I just don’t understand how I could be pregnant. You’ve seen our records. You know our history. We were declined for the License…this can’t be happening. I don’t break laws. I don’t want to go to jail…I don’t want them to…my baby…” Mrs. Adamson began to cry. Lillian stood and moved next to her.

“Please, calm down Mrs. Adamson”

“Becca. Call me Becca”

Lillian smiled briefly.

“Becca then.  I’ll help you and your husband as much as I can. I don’t understand what has happened either but fate keeps bringing us together. My Nana always told me that Fate had a plan for me. I suppose it’s finally decided my time has come.”

Mr. Adamson cleared him throat.

“Lillian, you work for the Licensing Bureau. Have you ever heard of a case where a pregnancy happened without the Procedure being reversed? Are people put in jail because of this?”

“I’ve never heard of any cases like that …but it doesn’t mean it’s never happened.” Lillian thought back to the black clothed guards and the woman in Elder Smith’s office. She pictured the green armbands in her mind and tried to recall the symbol she had seen on them.

“The Elder I work for is being audited today. He asked me to get some files from Central Storage. Every file was one I had worked on personally and in each case I had an encounter of some sort with the applicants”, she paused before continuing. “Your file was one of them.” She heard Becca’s sudden intake of breath. “The Elder called me by a different name and wished me well on my vacation before dismissing me.”

She looked both of them in the eye.

Becca’s face blanched even paler than it already was, the blood draining away as she whispered,

“He knows…he was warning you.”

Lillian nodded.

“I can’t go back to work. I think I should leave the city if possible. Whatever is going on, I’m in the thick of it along with you.”

Becca grasped her husband’s hand and watched Lillian pace. She shivered as a gust of wind ripped through the small clearing. Leaves danced gleefully across the surface of the pool before falling flat and floating aimlessly. She suddenly felt as if she was one of those leaves, floating about with no direction.

“We’ve broken a Law. The Law. Regardless of whether or not it was intentional I don’t know how we can avoid the consequences, whatever they may be.”

She looked at Lillian despondently. Lillian crouched down and grasped Becca’s hands in hers.

“Sometimes you have to break the rules around you to keep the rules within you. There is a reason you became pregnant. There is a reason this child needs to be born. And until that happens, I’m going to help keep you all safe.”
Mama's Losin' It

This is part of Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop. This week I chose prompt #5

 

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